i need an editor who understands me. I can;t fkeep feeling like I'm failing my fingers everyt time i sit down to correct their mistakes. I hate feeling like something is worse than it could be, and that's exactly what editing is. Yet, for some reason, I feel so cocky about my changes whenever I edit osmeone else's work. ughhhhhh. I need someone who can be that cocky about my writing. I have yet to meet a single person. It feels awful. Like I'm stranded on some island, wrapped up in delusions. 

and when I see that poor fuck in the sand I want him buried. so