sleepy but can't sleep. this portishead song is great. improv went well, but I always get really embarrased because I always do really embarrassing things. I guess that's like my special ability is to do kysworthy jokes and not kms. how special.
I miss talking to you. I guess it makes sense that my best conversations are with you. But it doesn't excuse the infrequency that I have them. I write too little.
i have lots of superpowers. I'm grateful for every one (that I know), but I still find myself incomparably inadequate. I wish I knew more about the struggle to be that you all go through. I wish other people talked about themselves as much, as plainly, and complicatedly, as I. I always feel embarrassed to talk about myself in the way that I know how, that feels revealing proper, that feels like I could get somewhere within myself by having whatever conversation will follow, I feel embarrassed to put those I love through that trial. I understand it's somewhat of privilege, but it does feel super blind... fell alseep in the middle of that sentence so im not sure what it means, but im gonna call it here. goodnight moon
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